Friday, October 5, 2012

Profound musical experience

I'm not sure how to say this without seeming absolutely corny, but I was really moved by last night's Godspeed show. They have a song on Lift Your Skinny Fists to the Sky... that I listen to on the train ride to Maine whenever I go. Last night, they played it while running a projector showing passing images of wide open fields, which made me feel like I was train-bound. A bit later, the images panned out and you could actually see the train tracks, which was a little surreal. I was slammed with this overwhelming bout of homesickness. Godspeed has perfected the art of leaving me with unbearable beauty and sadness. When I first met Nate, I remember listening to Godspeed in my car in the rain. Those first months together were so influential and I find myself drowning in the memories somedays. I want to slip into a coma an live in those dreams.

I can still feel the rush of emotion from last night's show. I don't really know if I want this to linger or if I want this to go away.

Each trip to Cat's Cradle has been memorable in some way, but I don't think I've been moved like this except for maybe by Mogwai which just sent me into audio ecstasy. I couldn't get to sleep last night. It was kind of like coming down from a trip and my brain was still feeding on and exhausted from the stimulation.

I am thankful that I have today off to recover. Feeling emotions so deeply is exhausting.